Difficulty Praying
QUESTION? / COMMENT!
I wonder if you would have any insight into a spiritual difficulty I have experienced? On two occasions praying earnestly for my 12 year old daughter it felt like I could not do it. As hard as I would try over and over it felt like my prayer was being blocked, by what I don't know, me? Something else? I had prayed the same prayer for my husband and my son and didn't feel this strange block. At the same time (after receiving Holy Communion) I placed my own, my husband's and my 14 year old son's hearts into the Sacred Heart of Jesus but when I got to placing my daughter's heart in His, I found it was a struggle, something blocking my prayer. I felt unable to visualize me putting her heart in Our Lord's. I tried and tried but just felt what best described a block. The same thing happened to me when she was confirmed March 2021. During the ceremony I prayed to the Holy Spirit for her and her brother (they were both confirmed the same time). My prayer was heartfelt and fervent for my son but when I then started praying for my daughter it felt a struggle and like either it was bring blocked, or part of me wasn't able to it. My will wanted to pray for her but there was something in the way. Either me (unconsciously) or something else. I don't understand as I have a good relationship with her and she's a good girl. We attend a Traditional Latin Mass and have been homeschooling both of them for 4 years. She has developed some behavioral problems since she turned 7 and recently was diagnosed with ADD, OCD and misophonia. We are in the the process of finding a Catholic Occupational Therapist to help her deal with some of her difficulties. There was one incident where she felt an evil presence in her room one evening while praying the Rosary. It was in a close proximity to her and she felt cornered but then she said that she felt something else (something 'good') there placing itself in the way of her and the evil presence then it all went away after that. I started to pray for her using Fr. Ripperger's 'Deliverance Prayers for the Laity', specifically the Auxilium Christianorum Prayers. Funnily, I never felt that blocking in my prayer for her. I did stop recently though. Another feeling I can describe when I tried to pray in a special way for her on those two occasions was a feeling of revulsion or resistance which was a cause of distress for me.
ANSWER! / COMMENT!
Demons will try to distract you as you start to pray. You have to fight through it, they do not control you will, that is 100% under your control. Praying doesn't have to feel good, just say the prayers and smash through the distraction. I would recommend that every serious Catholic prayer the Auxilium Christianorum Prayers every night for the rest of their life and follow everything written on the 'REQUIREMENTS' link and read the 'FAQ'S', it will help you understand how demons operate in relation to humans.